Penny for your thoughts...

For some reason I've been struggling lately... for some reason I always struggle with the intense desire to live a comfortable, stable life or to live life on the edge with little or nothing-only relying on what God brings in for the day and the future...
I mean, part of me would love to quit paying health insurance every month, life insurance every month, etc... but the other "responsible" part of me says I just can't do it. I know there is a healthy balance between the two-like, we can do all we can to be prepared but at the same time know that God has it all even if we can't be "prepared" the way the world says. So I'm curious to know if I'm the only one who struggles with this (it could just be my rebel, live on the edge spirit that wants to ditch it all and move to Africa!) or if it's a normal part of constantly trying to train our minds to think differently than the world. So, am I the only one? Penny for your thoughts...